picture taken at 30 weeks 6 days
Lately I've been feeling very worn out. My body aches all the time, I'm exhausted and not sleeping well at night, my insides are scalded daily by heart burn, and I'm almost convinced I'll never see my ankles ever again (gotta love swelling!)... and sometimes I complain about it. I get nervous when I think about the big purchases we still need to make before baby girl arrives (in just 8 short weeks!) and all of the incredible hospital bills we are going to have. But you know what? I'd never wish any of this away!
I admit that being pregnant is not my favorite. I can't wait to breath normal again, to eat and sleep normal, and to have my body stop being stretched out because it's just uncomfortable. I'm excited to have my body back to myself but at the same time I will miss feeling baby girl move around. She is the perfect reminder that I'm never alone!
And sometimes when I see Eric sleeping like the dead, sprawled on his stomach.... I develop the biggest urge to jump on his back, wake him up and cause him some pain. It's only fair that we both suffer, right?? Ha ha! But I suppress the urge because Eric will rub my back or my tummy (and I always feel like a puppy dog when he does, but it just feels so good!! Ha ha) anytime I need pain relief. But I've only been able to get a couple foot rubs out of him this pregnancy... :) But Eric shows me so much love and support each day because he is so grateful that we have a little miracle growing inside my body!
All the unpleasant side effects of pregnancy only last a short amount of time, and will soon be forgotten. But what won't be forgotten is our miracle daughter that Eric and I created together. We love her so much already, I can only imagine how that love will grow when we finally get to meet her. And our love for each other has grown! I seriously feel like Eric and I are in a "honeymoon" phase all over again! As scary, expensive, and nerve-racking this journey has been... it's been that much more exciting!! I can't wait to see how our love expands as our family grows :) This has been the greatest adventure so far in our marriage! I'm so grateful for the opportunity I have to be a momma! The aches, pains and discomforts will mean nothing once I finally have my baby girl in my arms!