Friday, April 25, 2014
being a toddler's mom
People tell me all the time that this is the stage when being a mom gets really fun, but if you ask me? I think this is the stage where being a mom gets really challenging. The first year of Mia's life was a breeze! She was the happiest, most easy going babe who slept through the night, took multiple long naps through the day, totally stuck to a schedule and the most loving, smiley baby girl! It was the most natural thing in the world for me to just love on my baby and enjoy every second with her! Now I have this independent toddler who has a mind of her own and plenty of attitude (ie: her favorite word is no). She loves to explore and wants to figure out this thing called life. The scary part is that I have to teach her right from wrong. I have to discipline when it's necessary. Sometimes I have to let her learn the hard way instead of coddling her. It's no longer just rainbows and butterflies with this little one. Sometimes I hurt her feelings and it breaks my heart. Sometimes she falls and gets hurt and I would give anything to take away her pain! Most of the time I have to let go of control and let her be her, if that makes sense, and it's really hard for me to let go.
It's still completely natural to be Mia's mom and I wouldn't trade it for the world! But I am being challenged by a 1 year old from the time she wakes up in the morning until her sleepy little head hits her pillow at night (she doesn't really have a pillow, I just thought it sounded good, HA!) and at times I feel so flustered. I feel like I have so much to teach her but I feel so inadequate. I feel like I'm doing it wrong. And then I have moments like I did today where I realize... I am just as much the student as I am the teacher. I am feeling the pressure to teach, teach, teach and yet Mia is teaching me without even realizing it! Mia teaches me to love selflessly. She has reminded me to slow down and soak up tender moments. She is the best example of being quick to forgive, which I really need to be better about. Mia is teaching me to truly soak up the beautiful world we live in, the people we are blessed to know and love and to be happy with what we've got! The lessons she teaches me are the same lessons that I will be reteaching her as she grows. What a gift that Mia is to me (and Eric)!
So as challenging as this stage is (mainly for the roller coaster of emotions I feel, and the tantrums that can erupt from my little monster)... it's equally as fun and full of love! I just really love being Mia's mom!
Posted by Courtney B at 7:19 AM