Yesterday was such a great day except for one tiny conversation that just completely threw me off guard. This is the first time that I've cried about it since I wrote this post.
A woman that I just met, and will never see again took it upon herself to pull me aside and ask what I am using on my face. I believe she truly meant no harm but...c'mon! My good friends, people that know me don't ask me such a personal, sensitive question...let alone strangers! And I realize it's sensitive because I make it so, but let me tell you the rest of the conversation...
I stuttered and stumbled over my answer (because I was shocked and so caught off guard with the question) and tried to explain to her that I'm taking care of my face, it's a hormone imbalance so it hasn't been easy, and it really is getting better. "Oh but you're not using acutane right? Cause that's bad stuff." Great...so my face looks bad enough I should be on acutane?! I told her no. Then she proceeded to ask me to guess her age, cause I'd never believe how old she is. To humor her I guessed 40 (I really thought she was older than that but why put my foot in my mouth when she's doing such a good job for the both of us?!) "No I'm 52, I know you're shocked cause my face looks so great! People think I'm in my 40's all the time and it's cause I've got such amazing skin!" Gah!! Can I just punch you right in your amazing face?! Seriously!
Then she tried to sell me her product. Word to the wise: the next person that tries to sell me their product... I will punch you in the face. Haha ok, I'm kidding. I'm open to suggestions but PLEASE go about it in a much nicer way (and when you're not looking to make some money off of me ha)! Anyway.... I cried driving home. I'm really proud of myself that this is the first time I've let my skin really bother me since that post (which is easier to do because it really is getting better!) but so frustrated at the same time. I was so mad that I could let such a silly, clueless lady let me feel ugly! It's so easy to get down on ourselves but I believe that women have the right to feel pretty!! No matter our age, weight, skin condition, whatever! We are daughter's of God and are entitled to feeling beautiful, like a princess, etc. Please allow yourselves to feel good about you! I'm going to try my hardest, even when someone unintentionally puts me down :)
On a much happier note..... say hello to northern Utah's newest spin instructor!! :) Yesterday I took the course to get certified and I get to start making calls this week about teaching! I can't wait!
And I just have to give a shout out to my husband... Eric, thanks so much for supporting me 100%! You don't tease me for how silly I am to want to teach spin, instead you buy me new spin shoes, sign me up for the course, and give me a big kiss as I run out the door to accomplish one of my goals! And thank you for making me feel beautiful in a weak moment, I love you for it! I am the luckiest wifey ever :)