Thursday, August 29, 2013

that time in the hospital...

...that I thought they weren't going to let Mia go home with her C R A Z Y momma! Let me explain the first couple nights of Mia's life. I'll just tell you now, there wasn't a whole lotta sleep involved!
Wednesday night/Thursday morning (December 20th) was when I was admitted to the hospital to be induced. I was so stinkin' excited to finally be having my baby, terrified of labor and incredibly uncomfortable because I was overdue.... so you can imagine how little (or no) sleep I got! I really didn't sleep the whole time I was in labor. Then my sweet angel baby was born and I couldn't sleep that night because HELLO?! I had a baby!! I remember laying in bed all night with butterflies in my tummy, just waiting for my alarm to go off so that I could wake Mia up and feed her (and finally have her in my arms again)! I'm not sure why I didn't just hold her all night? Probably because I knew I needed to get some sleep, but I was way too excited for it! We had visitors all day on Friday so of course I didn't sleep. And Friday night Mia decided she didn't need to sleep. I wish I would have had the nurses hold her so that I could get some sleep, but I didn't want her to develop bad habits (this is where the crazy begins). Eric gave Mia the binky and I freaked out! She didn't need the bink the night before, why does she need it now?! (I really didn't care if she had the bink, I was just going crazy in the head.) I don't really remember what else we did to try and comfort Mia, but I do remember being frustrated because I knew that I should be able to settle her down! I was her mother for crying out loud. But nursing already hurt more than anything I'd ever experienced, and I couldn't just hold her all night because I needed sleep AND she didn't need those bad habits I mentioned earlier. Eric finally gave up trying to reason with me and he just went to sleep. I remember holding my sleeping baby and just being in awe at how perfect she was! And I remember thinking how proud I was for not being "crazy with hormones" (ha ha) and maybe that wouldn't effect me! AS I was thinking that I dissolved into tears.... which ended with me in the bathroom bawling hysterically at 2am.
I don't remember being that hysterical in all of my life! And in the middle of my crazy loud cry fest, the nurse came into our room to check Mia's vitals. And I was so hysterical that I couldn't keep quiet, let alone stop crying. How embarrassing!! I finally calmed down enough to hear her ask what the problem was. Eric just told her that I hadn't really slept in the past 72 hours. I couldn't hear anything else they said so I just hid in the bathroom waiting for the nurse to leave. But she was waiting for me to come out before she would leave... so annoying (ha ha). So I finally came out of the bathroom and shut off all the lights so that she couldn't see my swollen face (and so I didn't have to see her face. I was SO embarrassed!) I almost started crying again because I definitely thought the first thing she'd say was that we couldn't take our baby home because of me (again, ha ha! I was SO crazy)! We talked about my worries and stresses, she offered to take Mia (which I declined. Stupid, stupid!) and then she left so that we could sleep. Eric rubbed my back for a good 45 minutes until I finally started to relax and feel the tension leave my body.
Anytime I share this story I just have to laugh! Obviously I need my sleep! If I could go back and change anything, I would have totally had the nurse take Mia and hold her all night. She needed comfort and I needed sleep. But you know when you're just beyond exhausted that you can't see straight and no one can reason with you? Yeah. Times that by 100 and now you know what poor Eric had to deal with... yikes! My memories of the our stay at the hospital are mostly good, happy ones! But there are a couple that I just have to roll my eyes about :)

Go here to read Mia's birth story. And go here to read another experience I had while we were in the hospital.

14 comments:

Brooke @ Silver Lining said...

I LOVE this. Makes me assured that even if(when) I have crazy post-pregnancy hormones, they'll still let me keep my baby! haha

Dinah Gacon said...

Oh bless your heart lady!!! Of course you were excited and I imagine all that adrenaline definitely makes you feel like going a 100 miles a minute and then you just get delirious! I love reading about all your hospital stories it kinda gives me an idea of what (my) Eric and I will expect when we finally meet our baby girl in Jan.

xo Dinah @ Sunshine super glam

RadiantKristen said...

We all have a hard time functioning on no sleep, I think that, given the circumstances, you could have been much, much worse! And thankfully now it's a funny story Eric can tease you with next time you're pregnant ;)

Jamie @ You Gotta Have Hart said...

Oh my.. Mia was such a cute newborn! You know how some aren't so pretty but they end up turning out precious anyway?? Well not in this case.. Mia was adorable FROM THE START! And I will be a basket case when I give birth, let alone get pregnant again (especially since I just had a miscarriage). I will need to be tranquilized lol!

Hannah said...

oh, the hormones! They got the better of me too. Thankfully (or not?) I waited to have my big melt down a few weeks after boy was born while I was driving... not a good time to lose it. Just saying. Anyhow, I'm glad they are gone (I think :)

Ashley @ ladyacray.blogspot.com said...

I can only imagine what an emotional experience that must all be so I don't think anyone can blame you!!

And can we talk about how your hair is perfect in your photos?

Andrea {kerubo mama} said...

Oh yes. I've been that crazy hormonal woman too. The way I see it, the docs and nurses are probably used to it and expect some craziness from these new mamas in the middle of the night :)

Laurie @ The Rookie Wife said...

oh my gosh, I WAS crazy hormonal and still am! Not nearly as bad though. I'm pretty sure I made my husband cry at least 3 times. LOL. Mia has changed SO much!

Ashley said...

Oh my gosh how adorable!!! :)

xo,
Sincerely Miss Ash

Whiskey Tango Foxtrot said...

Omg yes! They dont let men sleep in the baby ward here so I was all alone for 3 nights. I was so excited the first night, the second night I was miserable and couldnt sleep without my husband, and the third night when I was finally ready to sleep and excited to be going home the next morning, Mila WOULDNT STOP CRYING. No matter what I did she screamed for hours. So then I cried. and a nurse came in finally and we found out she wasnt getting enough milk so I had to pump and it was exhausting. They also dont have nurseries here so the baby has to stay with you at all times which I thought was amazing until I needed my sleep!

Steph said...

thanks for sharing this: i need to start getting my game face on! also, yay for december babies! (:

Megan said...

Awwww, you poor thing!!!! I got crazy once we got home, so it's all okay! Hahaha!!

Shelley said...

I never had anyone take Emily so I didn't sleep for three nights in the hospital. It sucked but at least I got a lot of baby snuggles :)

Hilary said...

Aww, that totally sounds like something that would happen to me. I just found out that our hospital got some fancy designation that prevents them from having a nursery for well babies and the babies have to stay with mom 24/7. Not going to lie, I kind of don't not having the option to have help if I need it so I can get some sleep. :-/

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