You know how it's easier to think down on ourselves and pick out everything that is wrong with us? I think it's too easy for women to belittle ourselves... mainly because of the insecurities the social media puts into our minds. Well, let me share something that I really love about myself. I feel like I'm a very happy, bubbly, outgoing girl! It's not very difficult for me to talk to strangers or make new friends. Acknowledging this gift I have with my personality is a great thing, because I believe that being more conscious of it, helps bring out those traits more boldly!
There is a part of my personality that I'm not proud of though. I don't feel like I'm belittling myself by admitting this... I'm hoping that by acknowledging this fault I have, I will be able to better it. I am a hot headed girl. Too hot headed at times, if you know what I mean?! If I don't like something I hear, my blood instantly boils and I tend to lash out. I don't cuss or call people bad names, but I don't use a nice tone of voice when I speak. I shut down and don't want to hear what needs to be said. The sad thing is, the people who see this side of me are the people I love most. Why is it so easy to be ornery to our loved ones?!
Lately, when Eric and I disagree we clash big time. Did my "hot head" rub off on him? Or has he always been this way,too? Am I just not bothering to control the instinct I have to lash out? What is wrong with me? I'm just really frustrated with myself lately. I want to be a pleasant girl all.the.time. I realize we all have our moments, but seriously? What happened to being level headed and reasonable?
This is something that I'm really going to work on. Maybe I'll come up with a code word to share with family and when my blood starts boiling we'll call out the word, I'll walk off to cool down, and then be reasonable again. Haha. It's a start, right? I just really want to be a good person, even in my bad moments.