Thursday, May 23, 2013

a heart like mine

Maybe it's because I got to celebrate my first Mother's Day this month? Or maybe it's because my sweet friend had to deliver her precious still born daughter this week? Or maybe it's because I don't ever want to take my perfect baby for granted, not even for just one second? I'm not really sure the exact reason but, today I want to talk about being a mom.


If Eric had it his way, we would have had a baby after being married 2 years. If I had it my way, we would have had a baby around 3 1/2-4 years of marriage. Of course God's way was the only way, and we had Mia just a few months shy of our 5th anniversary. And of course it was perfect timing (but you don't always see that until you are able to look back on life with more experience and wisdom under the belt, ha). But to be totally honest, I was terrified to become a mother!


I would tell Eric often that I had to be ready to sacrifice life as I knew it. I had to prepare myself to give up my body... as shallow as this sounds... I knew it wouldn't ever be the same again. And I was scared to have more imperfections. I had to be ready to care for someone 24/7. I had to be ready to put my needs and wants second, because the baby's needs and wants would always come first. I had to be ready for the unknown, even though there really isn't a way to be prepared for that. I guess I just had to get there mentally, does that even make sense?


Now that I'm a mom, if I'm being totally honest, it's the best thing that's ever happened to me! Mia has brought me so much happiness. It's like my heart could constantly burst from being so full of pure joy, and I know Eric feels the same way! I still have fears about being a mom, and I'm sure I always will. But I won't dwell on that, because then I will miss out on the whole point of motherhood. Mia has taught me to look at the world in a different light, to love unconditionally, to forgive in a heartbeat, and to live life to the fullest. No quote has ever touched me before the way this one has... Mia shapes and molds my heart to her more and more each day. I am forever grateful for being blessed with my baby girl.

26 comments:

Faith said...

Wow, such a moving post. This gets me excited to one day be a mother.

Sending prayers for your friend.

Alyx said...

So, so sad for your friend - my aunt had that happen last year and it's just heartbreaking.

THANK YOU for this post... it's soo what I needed to read today.

Amberly said...

I love this! :) thank you for sharing, you always have the greatest thoughts!

Katie said...

i love this. thank you for sharing. i have all of those fears and love hearing that they are all worth it (while I knew they would be!) it's encouraging to hear someone say it after saying their fears!

tifsong said...

how lovely this is. i am excited to experience all of this joy someday. you are a great mama. i can tell. you're so good.

Amira said...

Ahh, I could have written this post. Brandon was ready way before I was. I never in a million years thought I could be this in love!!

Laura Darling said...

Mia gets more gorgeous every day! You are so lucky to have each other! :) And prayers for your friend. I'm sure that's devastating.

Laurie @ The Rookie Wife said...

Crazy how it works isn't it? This is my 2nd but I really feel nervous about starting ALL over again. Things are so different then they were 10 years ago. I def feel older, wiser and more prepared. Being a Mommy is seriously the most amazing thing I've ever done.. wouldn't change it for a second!

Jessie said...

Awww, you sweet mama. Motherhood is the best! And my heart goes out to your dear friend and her stillborn babe.

Shelley said...

How sad for your friend!!

Heather Leigh said...

My heart goes out to your precious friend. Peace and love be with her.

You're baby girl is just the cutest!

Christelle said...

Such a beautiful post, and I love all the pictures of you and Mia. Y'all are so beautiful. My heart and prayers go out to your friend, such a hard thing to comprehend or understand why.

Pamela said...

Beautifully written!! Gorgeous pictures, as always! If it were up to B, he prob would have done had me pop one out the first day of our marriage! HA!

christina said...

so so so good.

i was a little like you hesitate to be a mom /// if you would have told me how much i would love every second and how it would fulfill my dreams i would have laughed.

being a mama is such a huge blessing!

heydanixo said...

That quote is so powerful and true!

Life Happens said...

Being a mom does change your heart SO much. You sacrifice so much without even knowing it. It's amazing that God trusts us to raise these little babies. What a blessing!

Lauren said...

beautiful post...sounds like you are an amazing mom! i feel so incredibly blessed everyday that I get to hear the pitter patter of litle feet run across our floors!

Lindsay said...

These photos are just gorgeous, and so is this post! I couldn't agree more with your wise and sweet words! <3

Also, all my thoughts and love to your friend during her time of loss. <3

Diane Writes said...

Belated Happy Mother's Day and wishing you more over the next years :) Your little one is getting more beautiful everyday

Jess said...

Lovely post. I loved your honesty and the quote at the end is exactly how I feel. xo

Annette said...

I needed to read this beautiful post; being a mother is the most precious gift, and you're so right to never want to take it for granted. Mia is a little angel--she came into your life at a perfect time for sure.

Emily Beth said...

that head band is just darling. i am so glad that motherhood makes you so happy, you seem great at it. sending prayers your friends way.

Ech and Will said...

This post makes me so excited to be a mother some day (hopefully soon). I can't wait to experience the kind of joy you described. Prayers to your friend and her family, I can't even imagine.

Allison said...

ahh! love that quote and all of the pink lace!

Jamie said...

I love this post-- it's so beautiful! First off, let me say that I am so sincerely sorry to hear of your friend's loss. Being that my first and only son was born still, full term, I completely know what a horrid loss it truly is. No one should ever have to endure that. It's really something that never goes away. Some people choose to not speak of it and some people like to be proactive in their grief and mention their child's name-- I speak of my son often and will forever do things to keep his memory alive. If there is one thing I can preach/teach my friends with living children, it is exactly what you said in your post... never take anything for granted and love with everything you have. It makes me happy to read posts like this one! xoxo

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House of Tong said...

i love how your are so genuine in your love for your baby and being a mother. i can't wait to get there myself!!

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