Monday, January 7, 2013

a love so deep....

We all know how crazy I am about my Eric. I love my husband so incredibly much. And thanks to him (and me, because let's face it.... he didn't really have to work for it, ha ha) we have our perfect daughter. I knew my heart would explode with love for her, I was expecting that! What I wasn't expecting was how my heart would explode with more love for Eric.
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Becoming a mom has been a crazy adjustment. Crazier than I was expecting.... and I blame it on nursing. But that's another post for another time :) There have been multiple moments where I thought I was literally going to lose it! My sweet husband has come to my rescue time and time again, and I couldn't be more grateful!
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I knew Eric would be so hands on with Mia, especially because he was so involved with the pregnancy. But the first day he went back to work, I about died over how many diapers I had to change. Ha, that sounds ridiculous! But I'd only changed about 4 diapers leading up to that because daddy was so on top of it :) But aside from being a hands on daddy, which I appreciate so incredibly much.... Eric had been my rock emotionally. He has saved my sanity in these short couple of weeks more times than I care to admit! We have loved, laughed and cried (happy, sad and frustrated tears) together over our baby girl.
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Eric is so quick to tell me what an amazing mom AND wife I am (I need to be my best at both. I don't want to give one more effort than the other). And he goes into detail about why I'm so "amazing" and it's always what I need to hear, when I need to hear it. On new year's eve I started bawling because I was the worst new years date ever. I'd managed a shower and that was about it. No hair, no make up, but I did shave my legs :) And I was climbing in bed at 8:30pm to feed Mia, with the intention of passing out right after she did. I cried to Eric and told him I was sorry for the lamest new year ever, and he teared up and told me there was no way he'd rather spend the holiday and that it was a perfect night. Obviously he was stretching a bit by using the word 'perfect'.... but knowing that he was so happy with his wife and new daughter was all I needed to hear.
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He truly is the best dad. So loving to Mia. He has all the patience in the world for her! And he is constantly reminding me how sweet and innocent her spirit is. She is fresh from heaven and trying to figure out this crazy life just as much as we are. He does his very best to make her feel comforted and loved.... we both do! Eric is constantly singing to Mia. He makes up his own tune and words and its just the sweetest thing :) He has a way of calming her that makes me believe she knows her daddy, and she knows she's so loved by him!
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I'm so eternally grateful for this man. My husband that I get to send eternity with.... I don't know how I got so lucky! He truly is the best dad and hubs ever!

P.S. My sweet friend, Laura, came to visit the day after Mia was born. I remember feeling like I looked like death, but Laura insisted on snapping a few pictures. She told me I'd regret it if I didn't let her and she would have been right! These pictures melt my heart! I love seeing my angel baby... so sweet and innocent. Fresh from Heaven. We're the luckiest parents ever! (And so lucky to have amazing friends! My Utah and Nevada  friends... if you need pictures! Check out Laura!)

39 comments:

Jessica Nicole said...

aww these pictures are so sweet! they are both very lucky to have you! :)

Micah Cain said...

what great pictures to have!!
your husband is so sweet :)

Brittany said...

This is such a beautiful, heartfelt post. And Mia and her Momma are GORGEOUS! She is one lucky little girl to be loved so much :).

Amanda Schroeder said...

I can honestly imagine how hard the transition is...I mean between becoming the best wife & mother you can possibly be. From what I see, I think you're doing great! I loved the photos!

Ashley said...

The transition can be tough. I remember lots of tears of frustration in the beginning. But, believe me, it does get easier. I felt like I was failing so many times but that is so normal. I used to call the first little bit survival mode. :)

m&msmommy said...

Oh yes, I remember shedding lots of tears...frustration, joy, happiness, being overwhelmed, etc! Hang in there! :)

My Mia is sitting next to me look at these pictures and she said, "What that baby name?" I said, "Mia" She said, "Really?" I said, "Yes!" She got this huge smile on her face and said, "I Mia too!" :) SOOOOO cute!

Tamara @ Everything Happens said...

Oh my gosh these pictures are priceless! So sweet!

Denise said...

She looks just like Eric! Have I already told you that? I thought there was something wrong with me because I didn't cry ever. At all! Not even when Kyson was born..

Misty said...

What beautiful photos, Courtney! It's tough in the beginning, there's no doubt about that, especially with the first baby. Just take it one moment at a time and rest during the quiet moments. You'll be back into the swing of things in no time {although you might feel a little sleep deprived for the next 18 years}. LOL!
I with you the best! What a beautiful little sweetheart!

Misty

Lindsay said...

These pictures are just amazing! So totally gorgeous. You'll all cherish them forever. <3

Loved this post, too. It warmed my heart and reminded me of when my (now 18 month old) son was born. I had a rough pregnancy on bedrest and some complications when my son was born, including the fact I wasn't even conscious until 2 days after his birth and was on bedrest and heavy medication for the weeks following. My husband did it all in the beginning when I couldn't get out of bed -- he changed diapers, did all the overnight feedings, was mom and dad and cleaned the house and took care of me...and even though I've always loved him from the bottom of my heart, it was a new love, a different love, gratitude and thankfulness and trust...if that makes sense?

Enjoy your little Mia, she is TOO cute. And, oh, I remember the first days daddy goes back to work -- BRUTAL! Haha.

Allison said...

These pictures are so sweet Courtney! You do NOT look like death...so beautiful!

Lauren said...

She's such a doll and you look beautiful!!!! :-)

Dee Stephens said...

Brad has been amazing too. I'm going to cry when he goes back to work!

Dee Stephens said...

Brad has been amazing too. I'm going to cry when he goes back to work!

Laurie @ The Rookie Wife said...

awww <3 You look beautiful in those photos! SO happy for you!

Jillian @ Newlywed in Nashville said...

Congrats! She is adorable, and I'm so happy for you two! :)

Liz Brown said...

This is the kind of thing I want to be saying when I have a baby. :) How did you train him?? ;)

Jessica said...

The pictures are beautiful!! Mia is just so precious and you and Eric look so in aww of her.

Tiffany @ Austin Family Diary said...

What a sweet post :D Your hubs is amazing and so are you! Love all the pics...it just got me thinking I should have someone do that for me :D

Shelley said...

I just read your last two posts. Giiirl I think all first time moms feel this way for a while. I remember how hard it was for the first little while. Hang in there, enjoy this brand new little angel, and do what you feel is right! You are doing great! Please let me know if you need any advice or anything! She is darling, by the way!

Evelien said...

You look amazing for just having had a baby haha! While reading your post I kept thinking "I wish I'll look as great as she does when my time comes around"!!
Beautiful pics...

Samantha said...

What a beautiful family :)

lori said...

Such a beautiful post, Courtney!! So happy for your sweet little family... And so glad that Eric is taking good care of mama, too :)

C.Curley said...

YAY! I've been away from blog world for the past 3 or 4 weeks so I didn't realize you had your baby. Congrats! She is so precious! And this is the sweetest post ever. :)

Erin said...

What a sweet post, and gorgeous photos :) I've heard the first few weeks can be the toughest- and I'm so happy you have your amazing husband to support you and baby both!!!

Jessie said...

What beautiful pictures and what a truly sweet husband. I understand that love! Hang in there. The first few months with a new baby is a combination of ecstasy and despair, especially with your hormones in such a crazy state! I too, have cried many tears. But it gets better and better. Promise. Mia has the best parents a girl could hope for.

Hilary said...

What a sweet post! & I was actually going to tell you how cute you looked in these pics when I read what you wrote at the bottom. Even your hair looks perfect! :-)

Mikelle Jade {The Honeypie Archives} said...

ah the joys of breastfeeding, it seriously makes being a new mom ever harder... thank goodness for good husbands who help out--i hope its gotten better! once you get the hang of it its great (except plugged ducts. But those still arent nearly as bad as those first weeks!)

you are such a beautiful family, hope you enjoyed your new years, and hey we went to bed at 10,,) so we are pretty lame too!

Annabelle said...

This is so sweet! I worried my whole pregnancy how my hubby would handle things as a new Dad. He went above and BEYOND my expectations. He is a fantastic father and I wouldn't trade it any other way! I'm glad your hubby is like that too! Mia is presh!

Katrin said...

You are such an adorable and wonderful family!

oomph. said...

you've always been amazing for as long as i've been reading, i don't know why the hubby wouldn't be happy with you and baby!! i think that was a nice "first" new years for you all. it was real.

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Megan said...

I LOVE the pics your friend took of you guys!! You will treasure them forever!!!!

Alyx said...

I love this post and these pictures. I cannot wait to have this experience - watching my husband become a daddy. You make me realize how special and amazing it truly is!

Niken said...

this is beautiful courtney. i used to wonder how it feels to be a mother. and you wrote it down beautifully. not just about being a mother but also being a wife :)

Mason's Mama said...

Love this sweet post. And the pictures are amazing!

Callie Nicole said...

Aw, this is so sweet - and congratulations on your baby girl! She is beautiful. Looks like our girls are pretty close in age!

Stacey said...

I am just finally catching up on blogs after the holidays, so apologize for being late, but CONGRATULATIONS on your baby girl!! She is just beautiful :) And this post is an awesome tribute to your wonderful husband! Wishing you all the best for the new year ahead!

Janna Renee said...

These pictures are breathtaking!!!